The colorful wolf

May 14, 2007

An empty space

Filed under: Uncategorized — randy @ 3:03

There used to be a blogpost here, but I deleted it again because I was embarrassed about its contents. First time I ever deleted a post. Let’s hope it will be the last time.

Tomorrow a new life will start. A life without worries. A happier, simpler life. But also a life that will feel less real. Without purpose. Everything will seem less important. I do not get to choose this life, but I did choose it for myself. That’s always my philosophy: even if you think you don’t have a choice, you always have a choice. I control my own life, and I decide to feel better tomorrow than I feel today. It’s that simple. Giving up on something is not easy, especially if it’s the only thing you’ve ever really wanted in life. There’s no way I can give that up, but I can come to terms with not having it. I guess I will have to. I lost. Tomorrow a new battle will start.



  1. Jihad!!

    Anyway, I think the chinese quote will do you good too!


    When you heart follows the environment it ends in suffering, but if the environment follows the heart, it ends in happiness.

    Sleep on this quote man, try not to hold bitterness because there is no point drinking espresso when you can eat the ice cream…

    Comment by Kamil — May 14, 2007 @ 10:44 | Reply

  2. actually , randy, there is nothting that is the only one that you will want in your life.
    in my opinion, you just need a woman. haha. u r smart, you eventually will have a bunch of them! give it up means lots of other women will have new life and chance(of cause not including me!!)–amyko

    Comment by — May 14, 2007 @ 11:39 | Reply

  3. -______-!!!!!

    I agree with her…Now you are a free man!!! Enjoy your freedom…you can do more crazy things with your life. To be able to have fun and not living your life for other people.

    You really need to learn that!!!! Although I am still in the process of learning.


    Comment by kamil — May 14, 2007 @ 11:43 | Reply

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