The colorful wolf

December 9, 2008

Looking for a purpose

Filed under: Tech,Thoughts — randy @ 22:44

What to do with my time? I’ve been thinking a lot about what I would really like to do in my free time, and I found out that I don’t really have anything that I really would like to do. I always try to be efficient in my ways of spending time, so I think about what the best possible way to spend time would be. And then I end up doing something useless just because I can’t decide on what I want to do. 

I’m thinking of some kind of project, because that could keep me occupied for a long time. I’m thinking programming, because that’s what I’m good at and that’s what I like to do. It doesn’t have to be useful, as I often seem to be more motivated to do something fun than something useful. but usually I end up fantasizing about huge projects that would take many people many years to develop, and I get scared to start it. Then again I can’t be motivated to do small projects because I feel I’d rather be doing a big project. And then my work is affecting me too, because I don’t want to do the same things at home that I do at work, so that’s usually where my motivation stops. 

Hm. Well. Maybe I should just quit my job, take a year off and do whatever I want. Maybe then I’ll be able to motivate myself for a bigger project. 😀

Side note: ever since I’ve been lacking a purpose I’ve been spending my time sleeping. This may sound boring but I am finding out that I can explore my dreams and influence them if I go to sleep with the right mindset. I guess if I can’t program the perfect fantasy world, then at least I can dream it 😉



  1. Ik denk da ik je kom ophalen donderdag..maak ik er een dagje vliegtuigen kijken schiphol van…en ff shoppen natuurlijk..
    Word tijd dat je je koffer pakt en ffies weer naar nederland komt!

    Tot donderdag…
    je zussie

    Comment by shanna — December 12, 2008 @ 22:11 | Reply

    • Geweldig! Dan zie ik je over minder dan een week! o_0

      Comment by rheide — December 12, 2008 @ 22:31 | Reply

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